Today I wanna cry...

Today I wanna cry,

I wanna cry from a sad, self-pitying part of my heart,
None of it was fair and it hurt a million times more than you realised.
Today I wanna cry...

Today I wanna lie in front of it all, naked.
I wanna cry for all that you've never seen & will never see.
Today I wanna cry...

Today I wanna cry from a suicidal place.
I wanna cry from the place that said death would be easier than this,
Today I wanna cry...

Today I wanna be the star of the show.
I wanna cry for all that I took, all that I understood, all that I let slide,
Today I wanna cry...

Today I wanna see the expression on your face.
I wanna cry for myself. Yes, that little, insignificant piece of this puzzle.
Today I wanna cry...

I wanna cry for the people we all were before it all.
I wanna cry for the people we became because of it all.
I wanna cry for the person I now am, all alone, crying...

I don't often do tears, it's not my thing.
But today I wanna cry because as inconvenient as it is for you,
I lived it, I went through it, and I need you to know that it hurt.